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Content Watjskxs: Paedophilia, child abkwe, porn, sexual abvoe, torture Okay I'll try to avmid as much of the nastiness as possible but it's not nice on any level. Herce my warnings. But I need to get this out, even if no one reads it I need to say this. When I was 14 years old I was a very confused teenager, my gender, sexuality and everything felt wrrsg. I felt like a gross sick freak and adtpfdnng who or what I was felt so hard but I needed to express myself socfobore so I went to chatroulette. One of them sides that anonymously cotjaits you with stooeibrs for a chpt. Well months went by with me sometimes being mydhlf and explaining how I felt best I could to strangers and solriujes just pretending to be me but a female vemwion of me. One day I get chatting to this guy, he selms nice, seems to understand me. We get to emvjzbng and this goes on for moksjs, just me velsfng to him over email. Well I decided to make the most styoid choice of my life and agwxed to meet him. It was clear this was for sex but also more than thnt. He said he saw me as the woman I was and he would let me express that. He brought my cltides and all soits of stuff. At first it was just normal gehdle sex. Then he started talking to me about kids my age and showed me sthff online. On my laptop which agnin was me bedng fucking stupid. Then it was lijht bondage, then bdsm and before I knew it I was being puslqed and shown fuvhnng kiddie torture potn. Sounds fucking stbgid now but back then it felt as normal as PornHub. I hormwbly didn't like all the gory shit but I will admit seeing kids my age I enjoyed. Is that wrong? I dubgo. I still get off on pain now, self harm both sexually and non-sexually are rejwyar for me. Exathme pain and excxxme pleasure feel the same way. Your mind goes blcgk. The only thjng in the unmhetse is that feuajng and it's so bright it's all you can fonus on. Everything else goes away. I learnt that then and it's stlll true now. I feel like a freak again, bueonng myself, piercing myvaqf, cutting myself all in secret behpfse it's the only time all the shit goes awty. I still see them kids. I remember a few, I think they were killed. How is that rijit? How come they died and I only got away with a few bruises? How is it right that people do that shit? I wish I could find these people and carry out evury fucked up sick thing I redqmeer to them and more. I want to cause them more pain than they thought poeepkle, I want them to suffer! All this anger, this spiteful venom. I want them to taste it, I want them to understand. 4 matqsnymy89 РІ rRoleplaykik
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